So I haven't put up a new post here in a while. For some reason I have had a hard time logging in to Blogger from my desk at work. In general I do my cooking posts during lunch, but haven't been able to for some reason. Most likely it has to do with the computer system we have there. It is really piss poor for a huge corporation. I mean, I use the internet all day to check out various information about the companies I am reporting on and the system screws the pooch over and over again.
Lucky for me there is no catering to be done this weekend. The wedding on Saturday pretty much put me out of it for the past three days. My fingers have been locking up just like my last days in the kitchen. I don't know the exact reason, but I can't grip/hold on to things like I should. It just straight up hurts. I love cooking so much, but I just cannot do it physically anymore. I suppose it is because of my commitment to cooking and how I would work as many hours in a day that it would take to get the job done. I would pull 14 hour days when I was in my early teens and eventually you have to pay the piper. To tell the truth it really makes me sad. I miss the kitchen. In a kitchen there is something new everyday. You learn something and continually adapt. You become better or you become lazy. I'm sure I have done both. While I was burning out, my work was probably pretty bad compared to a few and still better than most, but there were many years in there where I pushed myself as hard as I could to evolve as a chef. So now, I'm evolved and physically useless. Hoorah for me.
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